The reality is, most people who've dealt with depression, especially long-term, may consider suicide. Some will form a plan and think it over for months. Some will decide on the spot. For some, there is never any plan. They don't want to die, per se. They just want to not be here. They just want to stop constantly feeling the way they are feeling. Because the thing about depression is, you can't escape it. You can't set it down in the morning, go to work, and pick it back up when you get it home. It's everywhere. It's at your best friend's wedding. It's at your desk at work. It's at the gas station when you're pumping gas. You take that little demon everywhere with you, and sometimes you just need a break.